Passion.

Today I speak of passion. Passion is feeling so strongly about something that you cannot contain your feelings. Passion is a switch located directly in the middle of my head which I cannot gain control of. Once it is in the ON position, there is no turning back. I can even feel it when it happens. Like a spark, from the bottom of my neck to the top of my head all the feelings come rushing up. Unfortunately it is in my nature to be passionate for just about everything. To the point where I may irritate others. Am I sorry? no. But… I do wish I could say that these things didn’t bother me ( i have pretended… it doesn’t work ) I wish I could flip that switch in the opposite direction.

Let me give you a scenario… I hear a song.

It’s by some completely heinous band, with no talent or originality. I SHOULD just keep my mouth shut, but I can’t. The switch gets thrown. I say something. Someone else disagrees. I state that it’s not JUST the song, but everything the band stands for… and the bigger picture. Then it becomes a “thing”.

Every one of these bands is just a metaphor for the way the world is… and how talentless hacks and morons somehow rise up and become something… and usually have some sort of power over people. Which is why I resist. They overshadow the truly talented, gifted people. You don’t have to work hard, you just need to look a certain way or know the right people. Then we can all obsess about you instead of some more important matter like, oh… i don’t know… the PLANET?

I won’t support that, I can’t just settle. I wish I could, it may make my days easier.

What about the little guy who actually has talent and works hard continues to struggle through- just trying to find a way to make things easier. I just think the balance is skewed… alot. I mean, there are doctors and firefighters out there who make less money than (insert shitty band name here) while actually doing something for people… like saving lives. No one puts them up on the pedestal and honors them. And they wouldn’t expect it either.

These f**kers who constantly have everything handed to them are becoming very frustrating. The things people value… I just do not understand. There are so many talented people out there that struggle to become themselves… it just hurts that the opportunities seem so hard to find. It used to be that to be a good band you sucked first… played in a lot of garages or barns… played all sorts of shitty venues and then once you earned it, you became “popular” or “respected”… seems to me like the majority of the crap out there today consists of individuals who were chosen by a producer or agent to fit a certain style, clothing chosen for them, attitude chosen for them, fan base already built upon the other crappy bands that sound just like the other ones…. put all this together, on stage, act it out and it LOOKS like you have a band. Play the hell out of that on the radio and you got one hell of a business. Nice work Mr. Business man…

I need to find a way to be able to switch the switch back off. Or channel it into something else. These “little things” should not bother me… and believe me, if i could just say “ehhh, hell with it” I would. This shit is embedded deep down inside me and surfaces occasionally like a demon on fire. If you have a method that works for you, feel free to drop me a line. I’ll try anything.