So I have taken a few weeks off the blog.Lately, I have been consumed with this wonderful thing we call life. And by consumed I mean irritated. And by life I mean -pain in the ass. I don’t understand people. I don’t understand situations. I used to think that all you had to do was be a good person to others, and the rest would work out. Now I understand that I was giving people far too much credit. You can bust your ass, try to stay positive and not piss people off (yes, believe it or not I WAS trying to be positive!!!) and waste all of your energy trying to stay “normal”. Not so sure it is worth the effort. Some people just seem to benefit constantly and others do not. I don’t like this game. I feel as though there is a hell of a lot of effort on my part- if nothing more than the simple fact that I wake up every day trying to avoid being a pessimistic judgemental selfish asshole… which in turn should reveal a small amount of happiness in return… but I have yet to see any of that. Things are just frustrating. Beyond the “small stuff” that my blog normally revolves around… these daily situations are driving me crazy. Wake up. Anxiety. Brush teeth. Excessive thoughts. Get dressed. Question everything. Drive to work. Think more excessive thoughts. Stay at work for at least 8 hours of day. More anxiety. Leave work. Drive home. Stress. Get home. Unlock door. Load stove. Pet cats. Eat dinner. Kill a couple hours. Brush teeth. Go to bed. (then repeat) We are all on this planet. We all deserve to be happy. If you work, earn your money, and treat people with respect… shouldn’t things get easier? Maybe I am foolish for thinking such things, but I just don’t get it. Every step is another thought. Every minute another hour. Every month just a day. And somehow I fail to enjoy any of it. Sorry to sound negative. Sorry if this isn’t geared up to be funny like the other posts. I felt it belonged here because, after all, it is the list of WRONG… and something definitely is. I am going to try my hardest to regain a positive outlook. I just think it is time for something to turn around. Any day now. Seriously. It’s time. For real. I’m done. Really.
